dream home

dream car

Out of Time (Blur)

Where's the love song to set us free
too many people down, everything turning the wrong way round

and I don't know what love will be
but if we stop dreaming now, lord knows we'll never clear the clouds

and you've been so busy lately
that you haven't found the time
to open up your mind

and watch the world spinning gently out of time

Feel the sunshine on your face
It's in a computer now
gone to the future, way out in space

and you've been so busy lately
that you haven't found the time
to open up your mind
and watch the world spinning gently out of time


and you've been so busy lately
that you haven't found the time
to open up your mind
and watch the world spinning gently out of time
Tell me I'm not dreaming
but are we out of time

Retirement Dreams

To go home...

Lord, remind me how brief my time on earth will be. Remind me that my days are numbered, and that my life is fleeing away. (Psalm 39:4)

I wish this dream will pass

... I'm exhausted ... lost ... drifting ... I miss land ... I want to be whole again ... I need to ... I need myself again, I have an obligation to attain, I have to live, I have to ... 

I've seen this movie where this child is going transparent in one of her unfortunate moments (Spirited Away) That's how I feel right now, loosing my self, going transparent and confused...

I need to anchor somewhere, it's been sometimes since I left, my loads are getting heavier and I have to know where to after all this. Find ground, find land, find home...